do you ever wonder...

do you ever wonder...

Why do things happen the way they do

is there a reason for the pain

everything's so complicated, there is nothing clear in this brain

it's seems each feeling is different,

it's like there is no good or bad anymore, cause the feelings are so complicated,

and "fine" is the better word ever

I wish I knew when I'm happy, I wish I would feel something else than jealousy, fear, anxiety, loss, questioning...

I wish I would not be only "fine" sometimes.

I want to feel this fire again, give me love, give me pain, give me a real life.

Do you ever wonder..

why we have the life we have?