do you ever wonder...

do you ever wonder...

Why do things happen the way they do

is there a reason for the pain

everything's so complicated, there is nothing clear in this brain

it's seems each feeling is different,

it's like there is no good or bad anymore, cause the feelings are so complicated,

and "fine" is the better word ever

I wish I knew when I'm happy, I wish I would feel something else than jealousy, fear, anxiety, loss, questioning...

I wish I would not be only "fine" sometimes.

I want to feel this fire again, give me love, give me pain, give me a real life.

Do you ever wonder..

why we have the life we have?

well, I'm too dependant, I should learn how to live alone (are you meaning that I'll finish alone?!), and I should know what I want. But I'm fucking spending my time looking for myself, wondering who I am, and I can't find.. And it is probably better when you know who you are..

I'm C. Thérèse. Marie. B. Henderson. L.
Marie Henderson.
Thérèse is dead.
(why do people always give alive people some dead people names?)

I am Marie Henderson.
I love north countries.
I like helping people. (but some guys say I'm selfish)
I don't want to be a teacher.
I don't want to make everything wrong. (But I think that's exacly what I'm just doing)

I am Marie Henderson.
And I don't know what is right and what is real anymore.

Utopist

A politician died today. A communist. Like me. And today I found the faith back. The faith in whatever I wished for.
I wish for a new world. I wish we could resolve inegalities, I wish men and women are going to be the same, I wish everybody is gonna have the same rights, I wish we gonne find a way for our nature, our global issues, I wish people will understand there is no way to kill somebody, I wish our world's gonna be safe for children, I wish torture is gonne leave, so far away, never heard about again.
That is what I am. I am an utopist.
But that seems so clear to me.
That no man should take away some other man rights,
that no man should take away a woman rights,
that no man should take away a child rights,
that no man should take away the nature rights.
I wanna fight.
For ever.
I wanna find the way to feel better.
Because I stay in this world without fighting.
I can't see people hurting and do nothing.
I can't.
Some that is called communists.
Some people hates communists.
Maybe you are one of them.
That is just what I am.

Please tell me that's gonna be allright, cause I'm so scared, so sad, don't you see this world?
don't they see it?

What about nice fingernails. A story of nail polish.

.

You gonna meet some kind of marvellous people.

you gonna look at them. and they will see your eyes.

you gonna dream about them.

spending all your time dreaming about them. Awake.

and instead of live your life, you'll spend all your time. dreaming.

and then, they will look at your eyes.

they may smile.

they may hold your hand.

they may tell you some sweet words.

Baby don't even smile.

don't even take them hands.

don't even believe them.

Baby Be Careful.

.

Ellimac

the fact you want to be perfect
the fact you need to be perfect
the way nothing goes in the good way
the way you wonder what you'll become
the idea you have of what you'll become
the idea you have of what you want to become

the fact you're lost
the way you're lost
the idea you're lost

friday night

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

Kate Nash

That when you realise that it can be worst.
Worst than Worst.
When all the hope goes away.
When the pain comes back from far away.
Back from deep inside.
Back from the past.
And it's so different now.
Because you know that you won't forgive.
Not anymore.
You forgived too much and they did nothing.
They didn't even apologie.
That's when you realise that you should have done that before.
But it was so hard to do.

That's when you realise it's going to change you're life.
But you haven't the choice.
And you gonna feel so alone.
And maybe you won't smile anymore